Flaming Balloons

I had this dream last night. I was standing safely behind a chain link fence with other people  - don’t know who- and on the other side of the fence on a big hill were standing all these people - different ages, etc.  And in the distance I could see them blowing up these giant balloons - 6’ across maybe - and covering them with a flammable substance.  They were setting the balloons on fire and sending them skittering down the hill and all those people would run to get out of the way and laugh at their close calls and cheer each other on.  And every once in a while, one of the giant balloons would explode and someone would disappear in a fiery blaze and everyone would cheer and clap really loudly!  To my left one of the balloons jumped the fence and several of the guys jumped the fence to chance it and it exploded so close I could feel the intense heat and my heart jumped into my throat.  On the right a guy was skateboarding down the hill and he just disappeared in a blaze.  

When I woke up, I realized that this was my life. Always on the sidelines, always safe behind the fence.  And I realized in the dream I just wanted one of those flaming balloons to come my way.